I just can't say Goodbye to you......

May 30, 2010

There is never an easy time to say goodbye to someone that you love. Most don't know the day they will leave this earth. We know that this is his last weekend on earth at least in a physical body. I do believe those we love really never leave us they are always near us even if we don't know it. Those feelings you get that "someone" is near but no one is there... when you turn around and think you are not alone... and when you get prompted to do something out of the blue... I believe this is them.

I have known him for 5 years and have never heard him say anything bad about ANYONE. He lights up the room when he comes in no matter what the situation. He is the most loyal guy and loves unconditionally. You could never pay for this kind of friendship and dedication.

He is not perfect and has problems like stealing your socks on occasion. He ate my dinner once when I went into the other room to get something (man I was mad that day it was a steak!). The first time I ever met him I was bent over the bar talking to Mike when he decided to "take a ride".... I have never seen him do that again to anyone!

By this time I am sure you have guessed that he is a dog. Bart is the most perfect roommate you could ever have. Only wants to be loved and cared for... and even that is very minimal. He is the most gentle dog I have ever met and the biggest Golden Retriever I have ever seen. He will leave us before he turns 7 as he will not make it till July.

What is so ironic about his life is that Mike was looking for a Golden with a big head and big body. He found a puppy with a HUGE head. A lovable strong and huge Golden. Now his head is what will take his life. He has Cancer in his entire sinus system. My heart breaks as I watch him in his last days....his body is failing but his spirit lives on. He is still "the kid" inside.

I have often wondered in my life why the best and sweetest have to suffer so much. Why very kind and wonderful people have to die and others that make us question humanity live on. This is not for me to understand in this lifetime I guess. I also know that we all have a mission in life and when it is fulfilled me move on. I have tried in my lifetime to "bargain" with God - Take me and please let them stay. I guess God does not work like that because I am still here and those people I wanted to trade places with are gone.

I will always love you Bart and remember you forever. Your memories will live on and no Golden will every take your place. No other Dog could. From my heart to yours..... I can't say Goodbye... so I will say see you on the other side Bartholomew.


Nancy Ulrich

The Pink tree of life....

May 27th , 2010

It is going to be hard to say this in the amount of words allowed on facebook so I decided to start my own blog and write about things that mean so much to me. Yesterday was a very inspirational day for me... started out with the cemetery (no worries it is not what you are thinking). I was on my way to a real estate shindig in Bellingham when I pulled off the freeway to get a coffee from Starbucks and OF COURSE I missed the entrance and had to go further down the road which did not have a turn off for a bit. Now you know when a gal from Bellevue needs a coffee… she needs it NOW and being Aries, Spanish and ADHD I might be a little impatient and was not in the mood for waiting. Now I have learned in my life that when you are in a hurry things happen and sometimes they are not good. I had to wait for a long light, a school bus that had to stop for the train tracks, and finally made the light. It did not end there… I had to turn around on that road so I did an illegal move ( u-turn ) hoping that the cops were still at Starbucks getting coffee. No offense… I love you guys! ALL OF THE SUDDEN my A.D.D eyes spotted a pink object to the left in the cemetery. I had to investigate! Of course I missed the cemetery entrance so I did another illegal u-turn. I entered the cemetery on a road that looked like a sidewalk. This resting place is in Marysville Washington. As I got closer to the PINK object I realized it was a BEAUTIFUL tree with tons of flowers on it It was the most beautiful tree I have ever seen… and VERY MUCH ALIVE. The tree beckoned me to stop and visit. Even though my passenger was in a hurry... I stopped to "smell the roses" which happened to be a flowering tree in the middle of the cemetery. There is joy in the most simple things just remember that the simple things are lasting and real.


Now many people would think that I am a nut and that is ok I do what my intuition tells me to do even if it makes me look odd because I may never travel down that same road again. I walk to the beat of a different drummer and am proud (derived from the writings of the American philosopher Henry David Thoreau, who wrote:"If a man loses pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured, or far away. " http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Henry_David_Thoreau )

I am happy with who I am.
I will never forget the happiness the pink tree brought me. It started my day with such a great feeling of freedom to do what I want and a great amount of inspiration. Remember to pull over and notice the special things that others might just drive on by. There is so much life and love in the cemetery. Go to Marysville and visit the Pink tree of Life.

I want to thank the Alvestad Family for planting that tree for Emil K.Alvestad and Otelia A. Koehler. I don't know any of you but your love filled my heart on that day with life and love. Thank you from my heart to yours....... Nancy T. Ulrich